Victory, or destroyed by war.

It's a harsh cold world out there at the front line.

Being thrown, pushed, crushed, defeated, devastated, depressed. And still the next morning you have to wake up and survive the next battle.

Though till then, all the battles fought were only minor scratches of the whole cruel world.

But the failures in fighting these minor wars were already able to smash the young spirit into shatters and pieces.

Life isn't hard, everyone else is doing the same, and even more difficult jobs than you are; But life's still overwhelming, while you can't even win the weakest monsters when others are already slashing throats of huge demons.

Like a loser gamer in Diablo II, stuck at the ground level and could never break through to the next.

I am baffled in newsdesk. But I'm still surviving, at least able to breathe.

Though the worst part of it hasn't even come yet.

Watching people battling one of the worst demons I feel belittled. I know if it were me, I couldn't handle it.

Relieved and angry at the same time.

Relieved since I know that demon is out of the limit of my capability to handle; Angry because I know I couldn't handle this if it were me while others can excel it.

Even though the hands are trembling when weapons are set out; even though the shoulders are shaking when armour lies in front; even though the tongue is tied dumb when horn is handed - there is no turning back for a soldier on the red line.

In the end it's only sieg or vom krieg zerstört.

All we can hope is a ride on four horses over the Siegestor when the curtain draws.

"Dem Sieg geweiht, vom Krieg zerstört, zum Frieden mahnend" - inscription on back side of The Siegestor (Victory Gate) in Munich by Wilhelm Hausenstein.

"Dedicated to victory, destroyed by war, reminding of peace".

Blog and Pilot!

Taking control of that wheel, reading the invisible grids mapped out in the vast space, looking over to clouds all around and lands beneath shrink into blurry dots - have you always been aspiring to be a PILOT?

Now here's the chance for it. AirAsia is organising a blogging activity for those who want to apply to be a pilot in AirAsia airlines. Yes, blog! And ten people will be chosen to live their dreams in the sky.

Simply send in your blog entries from April 1 to May 15 this year, telling why you deserve one of the ten spots, to AirAsia blog.

First you'll have to login to the blog (it's the same login as the AirAsia website; create one if you don't have one), and then click on the "Write a Blog Post" tab. Then you can write in your entries titled "So You Wanna be a Pilot?:(post title)" with your full details that include your name, date of birth and your contact details (email, physical address, direct contact number) and submit it.

Applicants are required to meet these basic entry requirements as per the Department of Civil Aviation and AirAsia standards for pilot acceptance.

Conditions of entry:-

1. Aged 18 to 28 as at date of submission of entry

2. Passed SPM (or its equivalent that is recognized by the Malaysian Government) with at least A2 in English and Mathematics and B3 in Physics taken at one sitting. (Those from the Arts stream should have at least an A2 in General Science); or possess a Diploma/Degree in Engineering or Science-related disciplines with CGPA 3.0 and above and at SPM level scored at least a B4 in the subjects mentioned above taken in one sitting.

3. Good command of English and Bahasa Malaysia both written and spoken.

4. Must be physically and mentally fit with good eyesight (visual acuity of at least 6/60 without optical aid, correctable to 6/6 and not colour blind. Should be able to successfully pass a medical examination up to a Class 1 standard conducted by a Department of Civil Aviation Authorised Medical Examiner (DAME).

5. Minimum height of 163 cm (5ft 3in).

6. Be prepared to sign a training bond with a surety.

Ten winners will be selected as a whole. Only published entries will be considered for selection as one of the ten winners. The winners are then entitled to be the first to attend the first round of selection for AirAsia's new pilot intake, which will be determined by AirAsia and AirAsia retains the right to alter the date of interview at its discretion.

For more information, log on to http://blog.airasia.com/index.php/so-you-wanna-be-a-pilot#c1649, or email blogteam@airasia.com for further queries.

I wanted to be a pilot too, at some point of time in my life; How cool and free it is to soar in the sky? Well. Unfortunately I'm too short (around 159cm only)... so guess I'll pass on this great offer.

Though I know some of you might have been always aspiring to wheel that plane! So I'm writing this down in my blog, in case those of you who meet the requirements and interested might want to know about this great opportunity. Good luck blogging and flying! :)

P/S : I just read that you are unnecessarily to be non-spectacled to be a pilot. Read this.

It's too late to apologise.

It's never too late to learn that you have made a mistake. But it's always already too late to realise that it really was a mistake when people told you so back then; at which after you fired back at them, stomped away from them and never to see these unpleasant narrow-mindeds again.

People did a lot of silly (sometimes over-board) mistakes when they were young. And I guess one of them is to think that you're better than a lot of people and that you don't have to work the hard way like everyone else, and that you will eventually become someone great because you are great.

When people tell you to stop daydreaming, to stop fantasizing, to stop overestimate and "young people, you'd better don't be so arrogant", you felt offended and you thought these were the negative people you had to get rid of your life, so as those self-help books said in ways to lead a positive life.

However as time moves on you fell a lot of time and finally ready to accept the fact that you are truly incompetent, not that great, not that humble as thought you were. In fact you've been so inflated with your own capabilities that you've overlooked the rules of how this world works.

When you blamed it on the narrow-mindedness of people that disagree with your unrealistic fast-paced ambitions, probably it's better to flip the coin to the other side and look - no one in the world is as "open-minded" as how you define it.

You just want to get to the destination quick without working hard (lazy); You just want to get accepted and applauded for your ideas without working on it (more laziness); You just want to be recognized by everyone without even start to network with professionals (you thought you're Megan Fox or something? Even Fox has worked hard to climb up the ladder before Transformer was up!).

ehem, ignore the slogans. Just find it funny. :P

The world is open-minded, but only to those who have visions and willing to work hard to achieve something great. You could be king in your little brain without even moving your ass from your chair, but it takes years to be someone that speaks volume in the reality.

I am young and I have to admit to that I have done a lot of the mentioned silly mistakes. Negativity should be avoided, but not to the extent that even constructive criticism could not make a pin hole through your walls of perfect illusions.

When people care to not let you down, they're kind-hearted friends who don't want to make you feel bad; When people care to let you know you're being unrealistic, they're good friends who can actually pull you out from the self-destruction you're heading.

It's already too late to realise that some of the people I chased away (or rather I ran away from) in my life had actually been telling me the truth of the working world. But it's never a time too late to realise, than to never realise at all for the rest of one's life.

One thing I learnt - not to whine. Do things that is your passion, and even if the starting is hard, enjoy it. Whining won't get you anywhere but the trails of a failer.

Today I've learnt a lot from this website I accidentally stumbled across : Sloperama Productions FAQs. Even though it's mainly about advices for people who want to get into game designing industry, the wisdom of Tom Sloper applies in many places.

I shall end the post with his wise quote: "It doesn't matter if you're just a Street Corner Joe. You have it within you to accomplish great things. Learn. Plan. Prepare. Execute. Adapt. Improvise. Conquer."